i need long skirt. pretty please?

im lost inside
im broken

pathetic

i dont have friends.
i have no friends.
pathetic.
im lonely. im a fucking loner.
stop adore me.
am far far far away from perfect
im unknown
miserable i guess
*sigh

i want a gate-away

fuck off

im in the middle of nowhere.
my heart and my mind cant tell me what should i do,
what decision should i make.
should i go and ask random human being who can think better than me?
should i just let my heart out.
i need a gateaway.
i want to find me, i have to be sure.
i dont want to play around anymore, my age not allowed me to do so.
why am i being so childish all the fucking time

everyone has their own secret.

Just A little Hope..

9

im so sorry, i didnt mean to break our promises, i tried my best to stay in love with you
but my heart wont let me, but i do love you, its just we are not meant to be together now, maybe someday...
am glad that i know you, and glad that ure once mine :) i will cherish our memories
and please be happy for me.
Ure one fine man, and i know, they r lots of beautiful people out there will want to be with you and take care of you more than i do.. and please dont repeat what u did to me to others, change for ur own good.

the last time am going to say i love you. I Love you. take care.
we are still friend, and i will never forget us. *cry :(

Robert Sheehan

my feeling for him is so deep!

Strong enough

i miss cycling
i miss swimming
i miss jogging
i miss travelling

i miss everything

this is music

Stop thinking what you aint got and start thankful

Inspired me with something and anything
ive been down since forever and i want to wake up and aim higher
So, life is a beautiful. But, do we let them be all the way beauty or do we throw shit at it sometimes?
and am thinking its everytime.

so,the old me officially dead and gone
here comes the new me.

Fresh and Clean and am surely going to paint my canvas wonderfully.

Just a reminder

Don't make decisions when you're angry and don't make promises when you're happy

hello

hi blogs ville!
so, here goes my story.. first thing first, am hungry as hell.
ive been enjoy eating so so much lately, and i cant even let myself in hunger at all.
so enjoy all the foods ya mate!

Last night we (my family) went to Sekinchan ikan bakar for dinner,
yumm i know, we ate kerang,pari,sotong and much more. and guess what we saw fafau, she went to ate there too. She is cute and nice for sure. Its good to have a celebrity like her, not being arrogant like others celeb, Wallahualam idk who lah, mungkin ada mungkin juga tak ada.
So here is the pic of us.

get a life

i need cash, yes yes yes!
money can buy me happiness..exactly! i have loads in mind now
i want polaroid so bad. i want to capture every moment in life.
but.. i just dont get it, im 23 years old.i feel so old but still i did nothing proud in life yet,
i didnt have great job and still mocking my life.
what is so great about me? i find myself so dull and blah blah and blah.
i have no love life. i have no simpanan. i have nothing.
i need to do something. leave all the fun behind, and work my ass out.
need inspiration and support. come and give me xoxo.

love me.

...

i just not in the mood.

die.

why do all good things come to an end? 

Misfits.

oh my i Miss Misfits so fucking bad!
they are oh-some!

tanda soal.

how? bagaimana? macam mana nak buat orang suka kat kita?
susah nak jaga hati orang, susah juga nak buat orang trust dan suka kat kita.
naturally am not easy to be liked. everyone seems to not liking me.. weird! maybe maybe maybe am not a good talker.. ahahaha, am i full of myself? oh no no no, i dont think so.. more less people know me , more glad i feel. ahaa, sombong mungkin?

how about you? does everyone seems to like you? do u think they will talk bad behind you?
from my experience all girls talk behind their friends back!, so not good!
why do they have to do that? dont they feel bad? for once stop talking behind their back. be true!
ahaha, so emotional uh? forget it.

so, have a nice day ahed y'all.
xoxo. much loves!

17 feb 2011

Hi ;)

so... my interview for today went well, the introduction of myself , i considered it fluent, haha.

but, when it comes to roleplay. omg! i failed. so, they give me chances to improve my roleplay but i rejected the offer. i dont know, i just pass the job. maybe its not my luck! end of my interview story.

One of my friends, which is my housemate named Nadia Parmila, now became a celebrity, not yet a true celebrity but will be soon, i guess. i pray for her! she joined the Mentor under Edry KRU.. am not so surprised after all, she got the package , she is beauty , her voice is nice and plus she know how to handle herself on stage.

Congratulations Pam. u go girl!.Love ya.

so, this is the pics of us. u know which is me and the other is Pam, cliche! ahaha. 

p/s: vote for her! 

weirdo

what is wrong with you..? what did i do?

i dont understand, and i fucking dont want to understand.

ugh, being honest is wrong i guess but being a liar will kill me later, so what am i supposed to do?

geez, stop making me insane. i got enough problems already and i dont want this little tiny things be worse.

Enough is enough okay.

stop making life miserable and stop making me feel like i want to get rid of you.

by thinking that i hate you and am change, what are you? mind reader?.. only if its true.. please read my mind carefully and u will know, not like assuming things straight away. *SIGH

i hate to explain the same things like million times. Please i begging you, chill out!

enough for today.

-fed-up. Bang Bang Bang***

lagi pusing

so, i got interview tomorrow as a telesales. damn, why i dont feel like going?
maybe because am not ready? or maybe am to lazy? should or shouldnt i? ah, hows this.. what if am not going.. what will happened?
and what if am going and got accepted? am i going to work there?.

what is this?

lists

• polaroid
• handbag
• wedge
• ipod classic
• jeans
• loose weight
• hedgehog

oh i wish. i wish i wish so hard..

...

i love this! love love love love love LOVE love this.

after break

I missed Salam Maulidur Rasul and Vdays. so, should i start with my weekend?

Lend me ur eyes for the reading and your heart for the feelings ya!.

So, this weekend i went to Malacca for wedding. Later on i will upload the picture, hanging out with my nenek and aunts from Singapore cause they also came for the wedds. Had a blast moment with them, we went for a river cruise and street shopping, i bought nothing. aahahaa. Its a one day trip onleh, so nothing much we could do, i wish to experience the Jonker walk, i heard it was good. Im not so sure, next time maybe. If am lucky enough. ;)

So,how was ur V-day everyone? Love in the air? .... Mine? ahhh, what a vday without a boyfriend, but am doing fine with that..plus i got an interview on that day, from Intelek, as a customer service for international bank. They offering me 2600Rm basic but i guess its not my 'rezeki' since i left my Diploma certificate at Dungun!! Careless me!*sigh so, i applying for other jobs but only using my SPM, what the used of 3years stu-died at uitm kan. fatin fatin! mmph. After quite some time at the Intelek me and Fa went to KLCC for lunch while waiting for Abg D to fetch us, but guess what we r there till night. What a tiring V-day kan. 

So, the next day is our Prophet Muhammad S.A.W day. 1432H , perbanyakkan selawat keatas baginda.

i went out with Yed, Fa and One, we went to Carefour Punchong had subway and after that to One's house, lepaking for awhile and vroooom all of us went to Ou for batting. Nothing else. 

Now, am tired of poking this lappy. thats it for now.

i love you to love me.

Toodles.

curhat

i love colors
i love flowers
i <3 peace
im in love?

“I never should have let you…I never should have let you go and f*ck with my head no, no, no. But I did, but I did, why did I, why?”

(I Wish - Joss Stone)

shout out

u guys should listen back to :

-Joss Stone
-Leann Rimes
-Jeniffer Love Hewitt
-Norah Jones
-TLC
-M2M

10 things i hate about you

bad day

i thought its going to be fine today but am wrong.
i got into fight with my mum. and now am having emotional breakdown and self issues.
i hate when this is happening to me. i tried to be a good daughter , am not perfect but i try to stay away from making trouble or ze neighbor-hood of trouble. but am a human and i do make mistake.
i know i should shut my mouth but sadly i cant.
;( ;( ;(

maybe i should just follow the flow and stop fight back even am not satisfied. sigh****

supercute spiky

hedgehog
, sori rinrin, am going to have one too.
soon! LOL

ss

i miss you

bff.freaks

afifah fatinah
syamimi amira
nurul hurin
saiful azroel
mohamad huakmal

Runaway- The Corrs

unpredictable

whats up followers? heh, feeling like a celebrity today, naaah more to a diva. 

so, last night my family from dungun arrived here in Damansara. Much fun!

After all the fun last night, guess what i found out this morning?

My iPhone4 have been barred! Isnt that great? Now half of my life is gone!

and just for ur concern am going to Malacca this evening 

because tomorrow we have been invited to a wedding in Malacca.

Hope its going to be an enjoyable day there!

w

im falling for him.

i would love to go to this place one day. one day, just keep on dreaming till your dream come true!

baby love

This things is just sooooooooo cute. Im gonna die!

fook!

what the hell is wrong with the atm? i already send my phone number to register for maybank 2 u.
oh maybank.. did u get my msg? my phone number? HELL-O!
i need to pay my phone bill. desperately or else i wont be able to call or msg anymore.
and thats is no way going to happen. my phone is my boyfriend!

sorry for those who read this, i just need to shout this.

Persoalan

adakah saya jatuh hati? mungkin ini berlaku lagi?
perlukah saya ikutkan hati?
mungkinkah ini yang terbaik?
perlukan saya pertimbangkannya?
mungkinkah ini suratan?

the way you look at me.

everytime, every-time you look at me.
ur eyes tell everything, even when am invisible to everyone
but you still see me as am the beautiful person in the world
and i thank you for that.
you should know how i feel when you look at me but
thats just it.. the look you gave me not enough with what u did to me
am so sorry, i can handle ur anger management.
am to afraid to fall and to be hurt again.

i guess this is the end of us.

Girl in your dreams

Maybe i dont have the blonde hair you like
or maybe i dont have eyes like the sky
am sure you gonna find the girls in your dreams,
but i can show you what loves mean.

M2M

world

i desperately want to travel all over the world
feel the beauty of mother nature.
i want to climb the highest mountain
i want to feel the coldness of the water
the beauty of the sunrise.

i desperately want to see the world!

anyone? care to join me? we ride till we satisfied. ho yeh!

Life is about trusting your feelings,
and taking chances ,losing and finding happiness ,
appreciating the memories, learning from the past and
realizing people change.

hati

WBT.

W+N , hopefully 

hope

who, the question is who?.

do i have to keep on waiting, or do i have to make a move?

i dont even get a hint.

am getting old and i dont want to let my age eat me just like this.

keep on my +ve thinking 

to avoid looking old.LOL 

please.. bring the happiness to me. 

i will pray for it everysingle day.

amin....

let us be us

no string attached

i like it this way.
being free and feel loved.

Kenapa.

Why? why sometimes we cant think right?
always make random decision, based on heart. This is not good.
But even-though we know its not right we still , still want to do it.
It feels so right in a wrong way

me

her life improved dramatically 
when she decided to break the rules and find beauty
where she'd been told 
that was none.

Appreciate a woman

Whatever you give a woman, she will make it greater.

If you give her sperm, she'll give you a baby.

If you give her a house, she'll give you a home.

If you give her groceries, she'll give you a meal.

If you give her a smile, she'll give you her heart.

She multiplies and enlarges what is given to her.

Assalamualaikum

wow. its been like ages, i thought am going to be attached with this blog but times and work didn't allow me to do so..
so, here i am, poking my laptop to fulfill my desire to write in here.
today is 8th of February, as usual i got nothing much happened in my life, bored as always.. i do tried to make things interesting but yeah, am alone! pity me uh?
oh man, how i wish i got gazillion of money with me.. so automatically i dont have to work and for sure trillion of human being want to be friends with me. LUMRAH! .ahaha.

and now while waiting for pakcik skynet to pick up the parcels i listen to keane-everybody changing, its true thou. everyone is changing! world is changing!. even me and even you.. but think back, are we change for good or the other way round?

*renungrenungkan dan selamat beramal. Assalamualaikum..